recently i was talking to auntie [s] as she asked about my spiritual growth.. so i mentioned about the "ugly christians" i saw during the korea conference.. yeah there indeed ALOT of ugly christians around and its like practically EVERYDAY in the conference i keep asking god WHY ARE THESE KINDA PEOPLE AROUND?!! i felt so grrrrrr in my heart each time i sees it..


she asked if i've pray for them and i said no i prayed for myself to let go of it and get over it.. but she said dun be judgmental and set yourself not to be someone like them.. coz it will be wrong and probably you are thinking you are so much holier.. in fact.. ask god what he wants me to learn from it?



the only thing i could think of is Patience..



surely god keep putting these people in front of me have its purpose.. and i believe god is moulding my patience..








i joined a meeting with fellow sisters and brothers regarding the big event coming up.. but not everyone is present as they rather attend the bible study class.. furthermore they are the key personnel in the meeting..


well.. its my first time meeting and i think i cant accept the way some people are doing things.. during the meeting all i heard is this girl is doing these doing that and yet shes not around but in bible study class and everyone is puzzled about the things she mentioned or what exactly she had in her mind.. leaving the rest of the committees member dangling there!



and we managed to grab hold of her after the class which is like 10+pm.. she is like so eager to go off and brushed off with answers like "I thought.." "I don't know about these and that.." "I gotto speak to mr[r] about it.." blah blah blah and even said "i thought i have already replied whats in the email??" my jaws dropped upon hearing all these answers.. -_-



ermm.. helloooo.. YOU THINK I THOUGHT WHO CONFIRMED?!?! just like what someone in the committee said.. you want to be involved.. then be more committed! set some time for it.. you must be able to set your priorities! am sure you can get bible study class notes from others..



and you didnt even plan to do a site visit (you said you don't have time at all) and gave us a dimensions that was determined by the budget but after that you turn the table around and said its by the rough estimation given by so-&-so? everything is not done and we only left with 1 more month to prepare all these?!




its okii to dream big.. but you must be able to carry out! we dont need peacocks around.. we need more communications!!! not at the later part you said its just a suggestion -_-




back at home still feeling very grrrrr inside.. i talked to holy spirit regarding today's incident.. what it wants me to learn from today.. but i realised i can only ask "yes" or "no" questions to holy spirit.. but i really duno about it.. then the story of "Martha & Mary" came into my mind.. and i finally understood.. do you get my point?




She is right about going for the bible class.. coz whats more impt to study/listening to god's word? but everyone was like SHE SHOULD ATTEND THE MEETING which they felt its the most impt thing..



and because she didnt attend the meeting.. we began to have some prejudice against her and hence even more displeased to whatever she said/done.. stirring up the unhappyness in our heart..



no hard feelings against her.. i believe this what god wants me to learn from it.. and i pray for her to get all the things that need to be done with the given time :)