i think god is real good to me..



he knows what im going through and what do i need..



i saw his blessings.. yesh.. i really saw it.. it touches me..



ever since i started work.. im always in "debt"..



i dun earn much actually..




i have to give family allowance and 10% tidings and maid costs.. which is like half of my earnings gone..




but each time she ask me for marnee.. its always like at least 0.5K gone on top of that..





not that i dun wish to give but the marnee is not for good purpose and shes always asking for so much that i cant really afford..





and she thinks that that amount is rightfully for me to give her..





i think she thinks that my work is to print $$$





so much so that im unwilling to give.. i submitted eventually.. sometimes i really hope to harden my heart and ignore her.. but i get soft everytime!





i walked home from work and i tabao my own lunchbox from home to work.. i dun spend marnee on unnecessary things even if i really like that thing alot alot alot..





my friends asked me why do i have to be so thrifty or i must have saved alot marnee from it.. but the fact was im not..





i dun understand.. why am i the one who shrimp and save while she can spend my hard-earn marnee just like that!





its really just a blink of eye and the marnee is gone!





and she'll start asking me for marnee.. and the cycle goes again..






i always ask god.. WHY? WHY? WHY? is this burden too heavy for me to carry?




coz i tot YOU said you wun let us carry burden thats we cant handle it..!





but each time after i gave and submit.. god "return" it back to me.. not once not twice.. :)





not in the form of other things.. but in CASH! real cash!





im blessed.. and he ensured me that i have enough..




really..




god.. thankew for everything.. i really need you..





ps: hmm.. is this counted as testimony? lOlx