yesterday was my first day of work..

got lotsa things need to do.. need to learn.. and things are not as easy as what m thought.. only discovered that ms[c] is leaving nex week and m taking over her place.. which m tot m a assistant only..

the colleagues over there mostly work on their own stuffs and dont bother about others.. m have a room by myself.. whereas the rest are working in that big segmented corner of the office.. so kind of isolated and lonely.. colleagues there all have different lunch timings.. so m can foresee m'll be eating alone.. -.- and m have to cover receptionist when she go out for lunch.. thus we cant lunch tgt too..

ms[c] worked there for many many years.. so she warned me some of the things and of coz the head of our dept.. she have to teach me EVERYTHING in less than 2weeks.. which is totally a crap..furthermore m so green to office work.. shes a very nice lady and guided me in those offices politics and shared with me all the experiences she had and the disputes between her and the head..and SHES A CHRISTIAN.. which m really thank god for that.. but shes leaving.. so m really duno if m can cope with the job anot.. :/

m duno issit god's will or wat.. that He really lead me into this job.. m was googleing abt my company.. and suddenly m suddenly realised m actually came across this company when m was in HK.. it left an impression coz of the chinese translation.. and the HQ of this company is at shanghai! which m just came back from there not long ago for mission trip.. too coincidence eh?? hahaa.. m also duno.. and god actually sent a christian to guide me through this m-know-nothing-at-all job.. :)

many thanks for those who asked abt my first day work life.. esp mr.[a] who shared his tips with me on building relationships with colleagues.. and mr.[j] who surprised me.. :)


m always felt left out when [a] and [b] are together.. we were used to be so close to each other.. but twos a company.. threes a crowd.. in order not to feel left out.. m isolate myself if [b] is around.. [b] is a v.sensitive person.. there was once a big hoo-ha when [b] claims that we left [b] out.. which we didnt.. that incident left a big scar in my heart.. m was really sad so m was quite quiet at times.. but m dowan to see the same thing happen again.. [a] felt a distance between both of us..and ask if [a] had did something wrong or say something that have hurt me.. but of coz the problems does not lies on [a].. [b] later on asked if m in any r/s problem.. -.- nobody seems to understand.. m noe [b] wans to be with [a] and [a] is getting close with [b].. so why do me wanna make everyone in awkward positions when in come to pairing up? if m insisted to be with [a] then [b] gona felt left out and the big hoo-ha is gona come again.. thus.. m always opt to be with others instead of them.. and m think the distance between us is getting greater.. :/ sorri.. it just a random ranting..