m was happy when m saw people changed for a better.. m was happy when m saw people starts to serve god willingly.. m was sad when m saw people sliding away from god.. hiding away from god.. when you know that someone is backsliding away.. what would you do? help the person up or ignoring it? unfortunately.. m ignoring it.. :/

to me.. one must have self-discipline.. if one dont help him/herself.. how can others help? if one don't ask for improvement.. how can others help to improve him/herself? we can give plenty of advices or suggestions.. but its up to the person to listen.. to heed.. to take it or not.. we cant possibly force it.. it might turn the situation bad.. I felt sad when m see this happening..

ever since the TV incident.. everything were changed.. m asked god.. "why do you make this thing happened and damage the bonding.. why cant we be like what we were in the past.." He answered "dont dwell in the past".. m know everything that happened its in His will.. but now m cant differeniate does it comes from god or from Mr [S].. Mr.[S]'s capable of breaking up the bonding we have with god.. or maybe god is telling us to move out of our comfort zone..

so much so that m would want to help the person to come back againz.. but 我无能为力.. because m think its useless.. and m know we cant work as a team if theres a bondage between us.. we cant serve well if theres a bondage between us.. we cant go into god's presence if we ourselves cant face each other.. thus every now and then.. m've been pushing away the duties that've been assigned to me.. m love to serve.. but certain circumstances forbided me to do so..

all m hope is people who are backsliding.. come back to god.. coz HE still loves you no matter what.. and m've entrusted everything unto Him.. He will do the clean up.. m want to serve Him without any problems in my life..

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