=..( papa is sick.. yest he was weak.. frm spine.. tat makes him unable to walk.. he said its RHEUMATISM coz he said he ate too much watermelon which m bought which results too liang 4 him? in d end kor used hairdryer to heat d waist area? =( m tot he ate tat strong medicine.. last tym d medicine which =( too strong for him to take it.. =(

din zzz well yest or rather din really zzz.. -ve tots keep cumin in.. n mua papa nids care.. coz in d middle of nyte he will haf cramps.. m dun understand y mua papa stil care so much 4 d shop.. he woke me up early mornin 7+am ask me go dwn n tel mua aunt regardin sum orders.. yeah yeahz.. den m went dwn bt saw no one was der.. so came up.. told him nobody was der.. lata den go dwn againz.. bt he ask mua go dwn n wait 4 her to cum bak.. @#$% unreluctantly m went dwn.. coz m dowan mua papa to go dwn.. sat dwn @ d corner n wait.. bt he stil cum dwn.. ask mua go bak inisitin to wait himself.. =( he gt walkin problem loz n tis tym rd he was really in pain while walkin dwnn he stil wanna cum dwn.. can imagine hw stubborn he is.. so m ask him to go up! he dowan! left w no choice.. m shouted mua kor ask him cum dwn n brin papa up.. yeah yeahz.. a lil commotion going on.. n as a results =..(

yeahz.. cancelled all d outings.. din manage to go bak zzz either.. cook porridge.. open d can food.. goshz! it was so hard to use tat 'manually' can opener.. -.- called 2nd kor to cum bak.. coz nida send papa to c doc.. he was giddyin n pukin..

m was really worried for him.. he was weak.. n he keep on wanna do tings himself.. m cant show out tat m worried.. coz he dun lyk to 'burden' ppl.. he wanna do tings himself.. he wun speak up even if thers problems.. he wun 'fight' bak even if being bullied.. goshz! it runs in d family! =..( m sad coz everytym he tried to do tings himself n dun wish others to help.. bt d ting is he really nids help.. m owayz tink of "what-if" tis ting happen tat ting happened.. my.. m i tinkin too muchz? or m i worryin too muchz? m juz takin safety percautionz coz m dowan anitin happened on him.. m sad everytym when m c him in pain =..( all m can do is juz pray for recovery.. whenever hes in pain or cramps..

m i stressing nw? m i worryin for too many tings? ders so many tings going on in mua mind.. my papers.. my papa.. d youth camp.. =..( mier dey all said m gettin quieter.. m i? mayb nth much to tok abt? who'll noe m've been cryin 4 days.. or mayb m cryin nw..