yeshz.. i unhappy.. i was "scolded" 4 a small lil'ting.. n yesh i showed attitudex.. i avoided stayin near her.. tok 2 her.. stay a distance.. stay quiet.. juz wanna cOOlz dwn.. well, i was abandoned.. suddenly dun feel lyk joinin dem afta d event.. felt so unimportant.. aniwaz oso no diff..>.<

jiaz msged while he doin guard dutyz.. much lata onz.. he tot of memories frm pri till nw.. he said tat "it isent nice 2 b nice man.." 2+am m replied him.. coz i cant get bak 2 zzz againz.. lotsa tings tinkin in mua mind.. of coz one of it was d incident above.. i told him.. "it isent gd to b nice 2 peepz either.. felt lyk rebellin.." he asked mua to let go.. take tings ez.. bt he added "so wat of being a mr nice.. when its unappreciated"

so.. wats bein nice.. i hate bein nice.. y cant m juz rebel n show attitude? do i luk lyk i carE? y cant i juz dun care abt anitin n live in mua own world? :..( stupig mua..

*daddy.. i hate it when d tots came in.. its pain lyk needle pokin in d heart.. :..( lotsa tots came in yest nyte.. lotsa hurtful words tat i tot of wheneva m tot of d incident.. i can even wryte dwn "10tings i hate abt eu" list.. daddy.. comfort mua.. gimme hugs.. gimme strength.. i nid it.. :..(*